Thursday, January 27, 2011 at 9:24 PM
Hi diary , gonna treat this as my diary and write out my own feeling today..
Jus now my tuition teacher asked me about my result and e school that moe posted me too.
I really feel like crying , i really dun wanna go republic..
Many ppl told me it was nt as bad as i tot , bt to me it is.
I do mind it a lot but sadly there is nothing i can do about it.
Except for appealing , now i am willing to accept any course they give me as long as it is not rp.
Bt will i get this chance ?
It takes time for me to accept my 18pts , yes my expectation is indeed high.
So i fell hard this time..
Looking at the positive side , i choose the 12th choices..
That was another barrier , looking at all those courses i initially dislike and now i have no other choice because i wanted jus sp & np.
The feeling of crying came again but i didnt want to cry out in front of them because i knew they were there to help me , comfort me..
I hold back my tears and tried hard to accept e facts.
Finally i forced myself to accept it and manage to choose e 12th choices happily.
Jus hoping that i could get in at least one , even though i know i do not really like it.
But out of my expectation , i was posted to that , it was another setback to me.
Yes , i cried again even now ):
Wo zhen de bu kai xin , wo guo bu liao wo zi ji de zhe yi guan.
I did tried to look at the bright side of it , bt i cant make myself accept it.
To me having a score 18 is already very lousy , now another republic.
I really cant accept it , there is one of the failure in my life ):
I dun even dare to tell other ppl about it >.<
See-ing ppl getting into np & sp and some the course i like , really made me jealous.
Some even appealing , hais..
People will never learn to be satisfy.
I am just hoping for a miracle now!!
P.S I really dun wish to work already >.<
Today i did something wrong once again,
it was my fault , i know i am a bad one.
I'm really sorry D:
